Quarter of the way in

Finally got some sleep last night, though not much better than the previous. Though I could NOT fall asleep before freaking Midnight. I was wide awake, unable to sleep, and then my arm started bugging me, lol.

Story is going very good. I’m a quarter of the way in. It’s time we’re going to get to see Kylarra in her form. She may just have such strong blood that her form is unlike anything we’ve ever seen. That she is the one who gets to choose. Today she realized where her family line leads. Why everyone keeps calling her these names that she hadn’t realized until now . . . truly symbolized who and what she was. As in, the Universe has been guiding her to the truth all this time through people around her. They didn’t even know what they were doing. Sure, they knew her parents.

But they didn’t quite know the entire story. The Universe has been saying again and again and again – pay attention. 

Today she did.

And wow.

Of course it’s all about divine timing too. Now was when she fully took it in and understood the entire point. Now she was ready to receive that information. So now she was able to. Now she was able to also use that information within her own beast.

We can take that for us too. We’re constantly being shown signs by the Universe on what’s to happen, what we need to know. We ask questions and the Universe is always going here is the answer. No, hey here is the answer. Here! HERE! WILL YOU PAY ATTENTION?

THIS IS THE ANSWER

Until we are ready though, we won’t see that blatant attempt. If you like, you can say God too. We will be shown again and again and again until it finally slams us in the head with a steel bat. Just sayin’.

I need that steel bat sometimes. When we are fully ready (divine timing) is when that answer will finally pulse in front of us like a neon sign. Then we’re all, “oooooohhhhhhhhhhh.”

Meanwhile the Universe (or your angels if you like) are basically falling back on theirs butts exhaling in exhaustion from running after you with the signs. So finally they’re all, “finally!” *falls down in exhaustion”

Right? lol

 


War of Lycaens coverToday’s word count for War of the Lycaens

Started today at – 21,104

Ended today at – 22,382

Total word count for today – 1,278

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Not actually a word count post

I’m just going to go into that tomorrow. Today I was writing, yes, but the majority of my time was spent trying to go back and forth between all the other stories and trying to make everything clear. I only have about 9 or 10 stories to pick through if my memory is correct right now, lol.

What I’m doing is trying to write up a proper and clear background for the vampires.

Also, I received the proof for The Culling Cycle and needed to alter the cover, as well as some of the interior. The font turned out completely different from the font I usually use. Meaning it didn’t embed properly when I was saving the file. When I was updating the font my computer kept giving me a low memory warning. I barely have 1/4 of the drive filled so that was wrong.

Ended up restarting the computer and now I’m about to start work on the Dark Illusions: The Beginning – Extended Edition again.

So just a quick

Yucky kinda day

Just extremely dizzy this morning and I’m not sure why that is. Occasionally it happens. Maybe caused by how I’ve slept or something.

I went out to work in the yard for a little bit which helped my dizziness a little. Mila (of course) helped me loads.

Gimme back my baaaalll.

Really want a kiss from that thing, yeah? I know. Pretty girl. Obnoxious to no end sometimes. But that’s the tiny little thing that I snuggle every morning. Yes, she is tiny. Can’t you tell? Only a few pounds (65 lbs) that collapse on momma’s chest in the morning when momma wakes, so Mila can get snuggle time. Someone needs to inform that child she isn’t as little as the Shih Tzus.

So yesterday I didn’t really have time to write

about the story and things I’d been discovering, but mentioned today I would. Time fell away. There was a lot going on around here. Drawback of working from home. Sometimes life pops up and won’t let you get work done.

Today it was basically a continuation of the story and where I was figuring things out. Mila and Kat are realizing that they’ve been connected in more ways than once recently. And that this mysterious man many of them have come across (coincidentally not Julian – the man who’d know him) may have planned everything that’s been happening up to this point.

Mila found out today she was responsible for much of what Kylarra is having to go through. Not in a malicious way as in she was consciously aware. Oh no. But indirectly? Sadly, yes. She was part of this chess game that this man has going on.

In some ways, I’m starting to wonder if this man has in fact been responsible for a lot of it. Perhaps he’s been around a lot longer than I realize as the writer. His story is tying into a lot more than just one.

Because he’s been sneaking about throughout the stories, I don’t really know if he’s been there all along in the shadows. After all, he seems to have been lurking, plotting, planning. It’s not as if you can kidnap Kylarra on a whim. You’d have to build up a cage strong enough to keep her in. And if one knew of her history, then one would understand the depths of aggression she is capable of. Doesn’t mean she actively attacks people, but putting her in a cage?

Not so smart. Plus, knowing that is the best way to trigger that side of her? It means that this “Luke” fellow has been watching, studying. He has been around. Just because I didn’t know of him until he sauntered his little way into the story (can find his first appearance in the freebie I give out for signing up in my newsletter) doesn’t mean he hasn’t been about.

 


Discovery of an Enchantress coverToday’s word count for Discovery of an Enchantress

Started today at – 37,337

Ended today at – 38,854

Total word count for today – 1,517

Connections are being placed

Good lordies. I just texted my editor while I’m waiting for this dang desktop to cooperate. It’s taken me an hour almost to get it going.

My web pages are loading like I’m working on good ol’-fashioned freakin land line modem internet. And then trying to get my book to open in Word? It’s downloading from OneDrive. I’ve never once had that happen where I went to open something from my OneDrive and it had to download and take forever. Usually I click and it’s opened. But this desktop today. I swear.

Don’t really have a choice, either. I can’t do certain things to save my PDFs properly in Word with my laptop. Certain functions don’t work properly for whatever reason though it’s the same version of Word. So when I save my PDFs they are funkay.

Now I’m trying to reset the Wi-Fi to see if that helps things work better. I shouldn’t have to download things from my OneDrive, they should be opening on their own.

As for the story

Mila and Kat are discussing their visions, how they work, finding common ground, and through all of that, Mila is realizing that Kat and Kylarra are playing off one another. She’s figured out that Kat is sensing Kylarra awakening. I left off right there before Mila explained everything. All of a sudden though I woke early and went to bed at a decent hour, I’ve just been extremely exhausted today so the story was flowing well, but I was sluggishly writing. Also got a major headache so I popped an Aleve (only thing which works for me) for it while resetting the Wi-Fi. I have found that if I don’t do anything about headaches like this, they may just inevitably turn into a migraine.

In this house if I go down for a few hours, things are going to be problematic.

But that’s where I left off and where tomorrow will get picked up. Mila forming the connection between Kylarra and Kat. Today she admitted that she read Cage to find out who Kat and Julian were. She didn’t read him FOR that purpose, but it was a side effect of her having done that.

This is where they’re going to start really learning about who may be controlling Kat while in her visions and what’s happened with Kylarra. I realized just now they also have to address the fact the Stefan most likely scented Verrick having been there. I’m surprised he hasn’t brought up that fact. Either he doesn’t think it important, or he’s focused on Kat and Mila working things out. I’m not sure. When I think about it, I don’t have any solid evidence inside of me either, as to why he would.

Okay resetting the Wi-Fi didn’t work so I’m going to try opening the file on my desktop and copying a version to my SD card to work with. This is precisely why I usually only use OneDrive as a backup, not my main work files. Lovely that an older laptop works better than a new desktop. lol

Took me 5 minutes to achieve the above. While still the OneDrive version won’t open. So at least I can work now. With only 40 minutes left to get things done. I may work a little after 4 pm because of that. Really wanna finish the paperback today to get the proof ordered.


Discovery of an Enchantress coverToday’s word count for Discovery of an Enchantress

Started today at – 27,811

Ended today at – 29,755

Total word count for today – 1,944

So much to track at this point

Little too busy today, but managed to get some writing in, thankfully. As I shared on Instagram last night, this was the main reason why.

Now that she is feeling better, it’s even more work because I’m trying to keep her from jumping up and down on things. And then let’s not start on her love of hopping up on people when she gets excited. I keep having this thought of her jumping and pulling a stitch from getting caught on something. Obviously that’s just a worry because we’ve only had two issues from any animal spay/neuter and it wasn’t our fault. It was the vets we had taken them to before this one.

One was Kona. Somehow the vet (one I REALLY didn’t like) didn’t keep an eye on him, he pulled his stitches out so they actually used a staple at the end of his little self to secure the wound. I mean can you imagine? The boy cried himself to sleep against my throat that night, miserable as all hell. Almost made me cry that night, thinking about how much pain he’d been in.

The other was Kaley. She was at another vet who I also don’t like. They had to reopen her a couple times because the first time the woman who’d came in to do the surgery, didn’t do it correctly and the wound was reopening on its own. Then the stitches she used within Kaley caused a reaction and the stitches were coming out of her skin (the ones INSIDE the wound, not on the outside). Two times Kaley had to go in and get those stitches removed and fixed. The poor girl was a trooper, but ugh, remembering her having to go back into surgery to fix the screw up that first round, then get reopened two other times to remove the inner stitches because she was having a reaction to them? *covers tummy*

Luckily the vet we’re using the dogs have never had a problem with any surgery. The wounds also are done so well that it’s hard to see any lines. Kaley has a permanent line from being reworked, but Mila has zero scar from this vet and I imagine Cheyenne won’t either. They are one of the few vets I have ever trusted. Would’ve stayed with the vet I had long ago but he’d left. All my animals loved him. And the nurses were amazing. They were the vet I used when I got Sabrina too and had to take her back and forth when she was a puppy because she had round worms. (She’d been birthed on a farm with horses and sheep in the next pen, lol.) Lemme tell you how I would have loved NEVER to have dealt with that. Think spaghetti and cream, but the noodles move. Yeah. That gross. haha

Anyhoo, I didn’t have time to write on Saturday

or the energy, so I wasn’t going to bother. Didn’t even get too much work done on my paperback version of The Culling Cycle. Mostly it was getting it to the point of readiness to start copying and pasting.

Today, Kat and Julian

were getting to know Mila a bit more and Mila was admitting how she came across them. At least how she knew they were Ky’s parents, that sort of thing. I find myself with so much information to track and include at this point that I’m struggling to remember it all. Or find ways to include it all before it’s gone.

It’s like this little ding ding ding in my head that I’m working very hard on trying to find a way to include the information. Then where it’s important since I still have one more story to go through, but then I also have these main view points I’m working on using. There is a possibility that I will have to switch viewpoints and gradually include Kat’s POV in this story, as well as Mila’s even though Mila’s viewpoint is the main viewpoint. And then if I were to do that, then I could include Kat, Mila, and Kylarra in the final book. Their viewpoints I mean.

That’s worth pondering as well.

To celebrate reaching 100 likes over on my new Facebook page, I am going to share a second chapter of The Culling Cycle in the notes.

So if you haven’t had a chance, come by and like the page – facebook.com/writerkimiverson – and watch for that note to be shared. Probably a few hours from this post. 🙂

Back to working on The Culling Cycle paperback.

Sooner I’m done with that, sooner I can get back to work on Dark Illusions: The Beginning. Man. I’d hoped to have all this behind me by now, but this year has been a FT job. Anyone else dealing with all these crazy energies? Feel like I’m on a roller coaster ride and I’m supposed to be catching all these hanging flags, but the ride speeds up past them and I’m struggling just to hold on, then we slow, then we loop and I’m thrown all over the place to keep from losing what I have grabbed. lol


Discovery of an Enchantress coverToday’s word count for Discovery of an Enchantress

Started today at – 26,562

Ended today at – 27,811

Total word count for today – 1,249

Well, they have met. Now what?

The featured image entertains me. That was last night. Mila decided to sit in front of me and tell me she wasn’t tired!  I didn’t know until after I clicked that the timing was perfect to closed eyes, haha. Her eyes kept drifting shut over and over again.

Here it is again in case it doesn’t show right on your screen.

And back to the story, Mila and Stefan have approached the King and Queen of the Awakened.

This is where the final series story picks up because I had to rewind the time back to when we left Mila. And as I’ve stated in previous posts, it was beneficial because the information was important to the continuation of the story. So overall it’s a win.

I had an interesting dream (when don’t I? lol) on Saturday night that led me on Sunday to piddle with a story outline. I’ve been wanting to write a story that featured a certain species. I’m not going to give too much information on that species right now, lol, but my mind got to thinking about elementals. Something even about that name gets me every time.

Coincidentally, it hits me too that it goes along with Stefan and Mila as I write this. They started out as a dream and an “idea,” too.  Here is a post I wrote up about where this story idea came from. https://kimberlysueiverson.com/2016/12/20/coming-up-with-story-ideas/

That story creation blog series went poof because participation wasn’t there, and my time is served better elsewhere, so I just did the beginning of the series, then left it. That’s enough anyway for people to really get into the basics of story creation. 

Anyhoo, I was trying to come up with thoughts on that story and then I was going on and on in my mind as I watched the new Star Wars

I loved it. 

Moving on. I kept thinking about that dream and this character in The Culling Cycle. Then my brain kept going on the path of wanting to explore the idea, and wanting to write a certain book (like I did with Stefan and Mila, wanting to write a book about a witch and a werewolf). I may just explore it further. I have zero idea for a story, but was considering writing the thoughts I have as I go, in these blogs.

I don’t blog or write on Sunday, so in fact, I could play with the idea then. Maybe even blog about the creation, where my thoughts are, where they are going, and stuff like that. I’m going to think about it, which will take me time. I may forget, or do it and have the post share on Sundays even though I don’t use the computer then. Not completely sure yet, but that story idea keeps tickling at me.

I usually don’t outline, but for some reason I keep wanting to, to see what comes up. I sort of outlined The Guardian of Life series. At least the beginning. And I considered how beneficial it would be to any beginners out there who come across the blogs. Why do I say this?

If you’d be interested, leave a comment below. That may make me lean toward talking about it (blogging) publicly.

Either way, I may play with the idea in my head. It’s not a serious storyline in my head (meaning I have to write it this second!) since I’m still working through the final parts of my Dark Moon Dynasty Universe world, and have plenty of other stories in my head. One may jump at me to go after before I come to writing this idea. Or not. Really it’s up in the air. But I’m going to casually play with it during the weekends. I have many that I do that with. Sometimes they get thrown in the “eventually I’ll write this,” pile, sometimes not.


Discovery of an Enchantress coverToday’s word count for Discovery of an Enchantress

Started today at – 19,981

Ended today at – 21,900

Total word count for today – 1,919

Now what is this new development?

Getting even closer to the end. I was hoping that Mila and Verrick would show in this book. Sort of a hint of both at the end-ish so that when I continued into this tale (through the next two books), it’s almost like a carrot dangling in front of a horse encouraging him to follow, lol. That sounds bad when you realize I mean I’m using bait for the reader to follow, much in the same way that TV shows will hook you just before the break so you come back. Or the news will tell you about a story coming up that in fact is the only one you really care about and it’s the last one shown?

That sort of thing.

Show the preview of what’s to come in some ways.

Anyway, I’d hoped that Verrick would show and Mila so that Verrick would disappear (possibly, I don’t really know) until the 3rd book, and then Mila would show in this book to entice the reader into the second book. Oh, that just hit me. If she shows up near the end of this book, I could easily take that right into the 2nd book (I keep writing 3rd, oy). But since I need to start Mila’s story from where she and Stefan really left off, I may not pick up that exact scene until a few chapters into the 2nd story.

I could. Just like Dark Illusions left off when Kylarra was born and now picks up all these years later, I could do that with Mila’s story, but I’d rather not. We will see what happens. As usual.

About that point. I wanted Mila and Verrick to show up in the end of this book, but I’m not sure if Mila will make it. I can extend this story to accommodate her, but not if she’s late and not interested in participating. She may not want to show up until her story takes place.

I’m sure Verrick will show though. Since Mila is with Stefan and he can easily smell Verrick, and doesn’t have such a sweet temperament toward Verrick, the Universe may actually protect Verrick and not have Mila and Stefan show up until a good few days later or after. Only Kylarra seems to have the scenting capabilities of pushing into the past with her nose. Stefan? Not sure.

Sure, he’s the King of the Lycaen and all and has superior scenting abilities, but I’m not sure if he’s capable of such incredible abilities. I think Kylarra’s vampire side is doing that. She gets that extra ability from her mother. Maybe Kat’s empathic abilities, visions all sort of compiled into a new and distinct ability that Kylarra possesses. Like a vision come to life through her nose to pick through the scents and push into the past. When she hones that skill, what’s she going to be like?

I only know that much from Birth of a Princess. You’ll get to read that come the end of the year-ish? Maybe sooner depending on my schedule. When I’m done with The Culling Cycle, I may work on a book in the afternoon and evening. Right now I switch between afternoon Dark Illusions and then evening The Culling Cycle. The morning is writing Fury of a Queen.

I wanted to talk about growth too in this post. 

The other day in some of my blogs I’ve talked about growth. Not gonna bother to hunt all of them done since all these posts have sort of just become an interconnecting tale of my work, stories, characters, and life inspiration. Which I like. This is helping me to keep up my daily blogging too. I’m a natural psycho-analyzer. Maybe it’s my Virgo rising in me. My natural inclination toward overthinking and analyzing human behavior and why they do the things they do. Not sure. I have just always been this way. And only the people who’ve ever been closest have known that side of me. Which have been less than a handful. My dad was my biggest listener. He and I used to constantly talk about human behavior and all sorts of things.

So growth.

I mentioned in previous posts that Kat has grown because of Julian, I’ve grown since I met Paul, and even mentioned recently Ellie grew a lot because of Stone (yes she also had Jeremiah and Jack there, but I think Stone really balanced her out well because he was the one she told everything to). But this afternoon while I was beginning the clean up of the yard and leaves (nice and 65-ish here) I was thinking about how I mentioned my characters growing from those steady men in their lives, but I didn’t really mention the reverse. I think that Stone and Julian have also grown because of Ellie and Kat. And then the same for all of the other characters (pairings) in my books.

If I think about Verrick and Kylarra, they haven’t yet settled into their connection, it’s still very raw and grr-ish. Not really even sure how to say it. They are mated as a couple, but Kylarra still partially believes I think, that Verrick isn’t completely about her. And same with Verrick because they haven’t yet fully embraced their connection and accepted that yes, they are it for each other. They are fighting the intensity and yet who do they always choose? They know they are paired and know there is nobody else, but emotionally dropping the guard and being like, okay I’m done fighting this incredibly intense connection we share. That is also because they don’t really trust one another. That’s where it comes in.

Without that trust, letting down the walls, and letting that other in? You can have an intense bond and still . . . it won’t go anywhere. If you want that spiritual rare passionate bond with another there’s no options. You’ve got to let them in. And Kylarra and Verrick are still very afraid to accept that about one another. Sadly I doubt we’re going to see different anytime soon.

Still too new for them. And with Verrick’s, “I don’t need you!” attitude and “you’re going to leave me so why so I bother letting you in, involving you in my life?” actions, you really can’t blame Kylarra for being afraid to drop the rest of her guards. She loves him. She loves him more than anything in this world. Can’t imagine herself with anyone but him, but she’s reached a standstill until Verrick allows her in. It’s up to him. Do you want your life without her Verrick? Or with?

That’s the choice he’s going to have to make for himself.

Another couple which comes to mind would be Ronin and Hope from Hope of the Future. Ah Ronin. Mister ridiculous. He was so convinced that Hope should let down her walls from day one. As if just because she’d been hurt, she should be all, okay great, here is this man saying he isn’t going anywhere and all is lovely. Only it takes Ronin a long time and many arguments, many fights to finally see what Cayla had been telling him. That he can’t believe just because he’s there, Hope can go against all the pain she’s been through and trust this man is different from the rest. Hence the scene below.

“All excuses. I’ve given her no reason to fear me, let alone not to trust me. She has no reason to fear me.”

Cayla couldn’t believe her ears. She shook her head in disbelief. “Do you hear yourself? That girl has known nothing but pain, and you expect her to believe that the next who come along aren’t like every single last before? I’m not saying it’s not an excuse, but by god, Ronin, give her a break. I’ve had nothing but resistance from her, but she’s still here. She hasn’t tried to run away. If she didn’t care, she would’ve been long gone. That should tell you everything.”

Ronin huffed. “That says nothing. She hasn’t been in the position to run.”

Cayla choked on her laugh and almost fell off the back of the vehicle she was sitting on. “You’re joking, right? Have you not been around the same woman I have? Even when she’s lying in a bed, near death, that girl can run and run hard. Look at her. She may not seem like it, but if she wanted to? Not one of us could stop her. Funny that where she keeps running to . . . is you.”

Ronin waved her off. “I don’t understand why I bother.”

Cayla proceeded over to Hope, and as she did, she called back to him, “Only you can answer that.”

Ronin stalked off.

Hope is far too used to being kidnapped, being nearly raped, nearly killed, abandoned, treated like a puppet for other’s benefits. She’s been literally left for dead after she gave birth to a baby who died, yet she didn’t. Oh no. See Hope is an Eternal. So when she was left for dead–literally–her body slowly healed itself and she was to live life without the love of her life who’d been killed in front of her, and the child which died in her arms in a dark alley.

How is she to open up and trust this new person when everyone but Cayla (and she’s not been around long) has abused her, hurt her, and promised all these lovely things, only to later on betray her?

Then Ronin finally sees the truth. That no matter how many times he says something, he needs to show Hope. And he does need to tell her over and over while showing her through actions: he is here and not going anywhere. That she is important to him. That he’s not going to let someone hurt her.

And then after a long time, Hope finally hears the truth and sees it as well.  Ronin is it. I have a strong hunch she felt it from the moment she lay eyes on Ronin. As I pause to think about it, I realize they all have. Every man, every woman. They’ve all connected from that first look. They knew: that person is my person.

*whispers* I can vouch for that feeling when I didn’t think it existed. I fully admit that.

Anyway, that seems to be a huge thing for all these characters. A little voice inside of them said: this is your person. They fight their connections, each one bringing their own wounding into the connection, fighting it, doubting it, but not once truly giving up on that connection. Verrick and Kylarra are probably the most explosive in those terms, yelling they are done, but I have to admire the men when the female says that. They are all: Nope. You can’t get rid of me THAT easy. Then they proceed to hunt that woman down with all the gusto they possess.

But that is one huge background I’m seeing in all of the characters. They not only know from first glance that that is their person, and feel that connection, but they grow from that connection. There is no more chance to remain immature and run from bed to bed, person to person, leave that connection and this connection behind. They are there for the long haul. No matter how hard they fight.

I think that’s important in life period. Find the person who makes you grow. The person who inspires you to be the best person possible. If they are dragging you down into the pits with them, muddy, and happy to stay there? That’s no good for our souls. We don’t change the world until we become our best selves. And I truly do think–something I’ve always believed–that finding that person is essential to it.

Trust me, I’ve had far too many folks in my world telling me the opposite, but I’ve always watched a thousand people find that person and then change. And it’s not that they go from partier to drug addict left in the streets. That isn’t your person. The person for you is the person who you naturally change around not to please them, but because they just inspire the best version of yourself to come out. Hi, I’ve never been this emotionally expressive and open since childhood. It’s probably one reason why I love the characters in my stories too.

David and Kennedy are yet another version. They are in Sylphline Realm: Crown of Ice and Sylphline Realm: Royal BloodKennedy and David just connect from the moment they lay eyes on one another. They also happen to marry in that same instant, haha. You want volatile, now there is a couple who truly embody passion. Example of that below. David thinks she’s a demure little lady, following orders, until he pushes her too far, and she has to finally put her foot down and show him: no King, she allows you to rule over her, until she decides she’s not interested in following the rules.

She’s feisty. Love her. Comes across as sweet and mannerly until . . . she has to show her strength. Then not even a Bloidoi can match her temper or get her to back down. And this is while she is still very much a newbie in this world of David’s. Kennedy didn’t care. Probably could’ve had a whole ton of Davids standing in front of her and she would’ve stood strong and told them all to back off.

As much as David doesn’t think he can change, he does. Being around Kennedy opens him up emotionally. He’s been closed off, independent, uninterested in connecting with anyone. And really it’s because he’s been afraid of it. He was betrayed again and again as a child. Unlike with Hope, where Ronin has to show her these things, it’s Kennedy in the Sylphline Realm. Kennedy is the one who opens David up to be more expressive and show to him that she isn’t going anywhere. I’d imagine for Verrick and Kylarra, they may be equal in that partnership.

Maybe it is what we’re all here for. Not just to better ourselves, but yes to find that person who helps us grow to become even better than we’d ever be on our own. Maybe not for all of us, but I know that unless you have another there to help you express to them then you’re not really able to grow that way because if we think about it, it forces us to be vulnerable in a way we just can’t with anyone else. Because our person is the one we’re going to be naked with in far more ways than just one meaning of that word. And finding someone who can accept us as is, and help us to see that it is okay to be so vulnerable?

I always go back to my grandparents. They were extraordinary people. And I am not sure either of them would be half the person they were without the other. They were the truest partners and best friends that I’ve ever seen. In their late years, my grandfather really needed my grandmother and not only did she stay, but she was not miserable about it. Not hateful toward him. She wasn’t yelling, “I gave up my life for you!” to this man. She loved him every day. Even while throwing up her hands and bitching him out or doing that huff/snort sound which meant basically that she wanted to ring his damn neck out of frustration. Then he’d proceed to just smile. Because they knew how to poke at each other and still love one another. I loved every minute of being around them. I never tired of it. And that too is what happens when you find that person who helps you grow.

It changes those around you. People become better just being around you. They love to be around that energy. It is a beautiful feeling to be enveloped in, around.

Growth doesn’t come from a person trying to change us. Because nobody can make us change and if they do? It won’t last. Can you imagine Kylarra telling Verrick to stop being an asshole? Oh yeah sure, she has, but because she’s been pissed off at him. Didn’t make him stop being one. Just made him do it more to tick her off. People have been trying to change me my entire life. Rather than loving me as is accepting me as is and then in turn I change to become a better person for it. Do you know how healing it is to hear someone say they understand you? They are glad to have you in their life? To say thank you? Just for being you?

There is no change in there. Just solid acceptance. And if you don’t find yourself becoming a better person around them? They aren’t your person. Period.

Though it’s not happening anytime soon, I do think Verrick is going to step up. Because he’s going to have Kylarra stripped away from him against his will and he’ll have no choice. In the beginning I have a feeling he’s convincing himself she left him, but though I don’t know what will happen to get him to change that thought, it will. I have no doubt. I believe in Verrick. At the end of the day, Kylarra is all he wants.

And one of these days that man is going to prove it to her. He’s going to not only show the hell up, but I have this note written down where Viktor tells them if Kylarra ever goes missing, Verrick is the one. Verrick will find her. Always. And I always get goosebumps when I read it. Tear up too, haha. Because I think that’s going to be Verrick’s wake-up call.

And there will be nothing that stops Verrick from finding his mate and ensuring she knows that she is his entire world and he’d give up everything for her. Her happiness means everything to him. Let’s face it: he’s a big ol cuddle bug beneath that grr exterior.

We all know it. Now Verrick needs to accept it and then a very strong leader is going to come out of him. No longer this ass who wants to bully everyone into being afraid. He’ll be the real leader he’s meant to be.

Off to work on the redo of Dark Illusions: The Beginning.

 


Today’s word count for Fury of a Queen.

Started today at – 58,181

Ended today at – 59,932

Total word count for today – 1,751

Mila’s crochet quilt blanket phase 2

Mila’s quilted look crochet blanket phase two. Contrasting border color before the join. (Thinking of flat braid join.) As you can see, I’m stitching the two squares together back-to-back (right sides facing out) with a single #crochet. So when the blanket is turned over, the exact square is on the opposing side, just in the opposing color. I probably could’ve also done #grannysquare to the back of a sc square, but with all the brain work and hand work I’m already doing, this is enough, lol.

My contrast color is Caron Simply Soft in Heather Grey.

Two main colors (same yarn) are Victorian Rose and white.

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